©2013 Lisa Call
12 x 12 inches
Fabric, dye, thread, batting
Available at Vision Art Museum Store
I have a tendency to make todo lists that are ridiculously long and just being okay without getting everything done. By aiming high I push myself to do more.
At least that was the theory.
But I’ve grown weary of this routine. Not the working hard, but the not getting everything on my list done.
It’s demoralizing. I’m making promises to myself and then not keeping them, which feels icky. I’d never do this to other people so why do I break promises to myself?
I’m now making shorter lists and committing myself to completing them.
It’s a new thing for me and I’m still working out what it means and how to do it.
Last week I committed to working in my studio 20 hours and by friday evening I’d only found the time for 5 hours. In the past I’d say “oh well” and be happy with fewer than 20.
But not with my new plan. I got up early Saturday and Sunday and put in 15 hours in the studio to end the week with the promised 20 hours.
It meant less time relaxing and socializing but it also meant I trust that if I say 20 hours I mean 20 hours.
While I don’t hit 100% done every day or week, I’m feeling more confident that when I make a list I will really do what I say. In doing so I see myself moving forward, making progress.
And the interesting thing is – the shorter lists seem to be moving me forward at a faster pace than those long crazy lists.