Pausing for Results

The Desire to Push

Instead of working in my studio for 2 hours before work and another 2-3 after work, I spent only an hour in my studio today.

Part of me is impatient, wants everything to be okay so I can get back to the studio. The other part of me knows that taking time for self care, to lead me beyond depression in a healthy sustainable way, that I must start slowly.

It’s not my nature to pause.

In the past, I would go 16 hours a day without much fewer breaks. I loved it, felt productive and it energized me.

A Day with Pauses

I can’t work like that anymore, or at least not yet. I’m requiring myself to stay focused on doing the things that make me feel better.

This is my day today:

- Wake up at 5:30am.
- Play with my cats as I talk myself into running (I’m getting close to the point where I won’t dread running but will instead crave it – I’m just not quite there yet)
- Run
- Feel ever so grateful I am able to run and that it brings me such balance
- 15 minutes weeding the yard and enjoying the sunshine
- 20 minutes of yoga
- Shower, prepare for the day, update social media sites, check email
- 30 minutes in my studio
- The day job
- During lunch run errands to dispute a parking ticket (I lost) and pick up some artwork I had framed (photos coming)
- Meet with my therapist, which is always an excellent pause in the day to reflect on where I am going
- Attend a yoga class at the wonderful yoga studio I joined this summer
- Home to eat a simple and healthy dinner of raw veggies, fruit and some salmon
- 30 minutes in my studio
- Reply to a handful few emails with gratitude for the amazing support of my friends, family and all you wonderful blog readers
- Writing a blog post (ie this one)
- To bed at 10am

I know I still get a lot done. I know my day is still very full, but sometimes it doesn’t feel as full given how much of my time is spent on self care.

Writing it down like this, reminds me of all I do accomplish. And how important the breaks are.

The proof: Monday I started Structures #112, the first large textile painting I have worked through a full design since februrary. Tomorrow morning I’ll start sewing it together. Woohoo!


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Removing Obstacles – Part III

Abstract Contemporary Textile Painting / Art Quilt - Home #42 ©2010 Lisa Call

Home #42 (informed by Home #11)
©2010 Lisa Call
2.5" x 3.5"
Textile Painting (Fabric hand dyed by the artist, cotton batting, cotton thread)
$40 + shipping


 

Getting Unstuck

I wrote an essay, To Flounder or Not to Flounder, in my last studio newsletter about being stuck and it being time to get unstuck and move forward.

To aid in that intention, I’m writing a series of blog posts on how I’m going about this process.

Living Unconsciously

This was March – living unconsciously. I took my break in February, then felt ready to get back to work, but I didn’t.

I wasn’t putting much thought into anything. Like what I was eating. How much I was sleeping. If I was exercising. I didn’t think about how I was spending my time in any thoughtful way.

I was on auto pilot eating junk, going to bed much too late and doing nothing of value.

Reality Check

Relaxing would have been of value, yet it was clear I wasn’t doing that, as I didn’t feel relaxed or refreshed.

I felt stress by my lack of energy.

Living unconsciously isn’t the same thing as taking a break. When taking a break from work hard, I didn’t need to toss out my healthy eating habits for a month. Giving up yoga, one of the most fabulous ways I can think of to spend my time, what was I thinking?

I essentially stopped most self care in March.

Lesson Learned

Taking a break is not about living unconsciously.

It is important to maintain my habits (and they are habits, and hence not work or undesirable).

This weekend I reminded myself of my priorities for my health. I review this list each day to help reestablish my habits.

This is my list:

  • Yoga - 4 or more times a week
  • Journal - every day
  • Sleep - 8 hours a day, going to bed early
  • Water - drink plenty, don’t feel thirsty
  • Eat Healthy – make home cooked meals for my family. Avoid sugar, white flour and chips. Eat fresh fruit and vegetables daily. Eat whole grains. Eat protein (I’m a vegetarian most of the time so this is important)
  • Walk - 2 or more times a week. The sunshine is magical.
  • Exercise - 2 or more times a week. Get the heart rate going. I work out with a friend so this is an added bonus of friendship.
  • Connection - plan time with friends, don’t wait for someone else to make the plans. Spend time with a variety of friends.
  • Read - daily. It helps me fall asleep and I love to learn (non-fiction) and to be entertained (fiction). Read a variety of book types.
  • Time off - take time off to relax. Take baths, hang out with my kids, watch the sunset, etc.

I figure it will take a few weeks to reestablish these routines. I’ve already started feeling better as I’ve been doing most everything on that list (with a few missed days since friday but not many).

The positive reinforcement of feeling better, makes it easier each day to keep going. It’s amazing how quickly caring for one’s health pays off.

 
And excellent post on Zen Habits on this topic: Wake Up: A Guide to Living Your Life Consciously
 

Related Posts

Removing Obstacles – Part I – Eating the Frog (Taxes)
Removing Obstacles – Part II – In the Studio
Removing Obstacles – Part III – Self Care – this post
Removing Obstacles – Part IV – Writing About Art
Removing Obstacles – Part V – Success, Failure and Fear – coming soon
Removing Obstacles – Part VI – Connections – coming soon
Removing Obstacles – Part VII – Goals – coming soon


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How to Get Stuff Done

Page from my Sketchbook ©2008 Lisa Call

Page From My Sketchbook Used to Track Studio Time (click to see larger image)

Tracking Studio Time

I wasn’t planning on writing tonight but I want to write this down while I still remember the thoughts I had today thinking about the post I wrote last night and some of the comments that were left.

I mentioned several times on my blog that I track my studio time. The posts I wrote early in 2008 ( This One and Another One ) are very interesting reads.

These posts indicate a change I made in tracking studio time. I went from being very systematic about it, to taking a more laid back approach. It was all part of the search for who I wanted to be.

I’ve since decided that is a bunch of crap-ola. Yep – I’m going back to a definite plan for how much work I want to get down in my studio.

It Didn’t Work

I discovered that trying to take the "Oh, It doesn’t matter, I’m more floaty and creative if I don’t put rules around it" approach to studio time resulted in my getting significantly less done.

In Jan-Mar of 2008, right after I devised that crazy scheme, I did basically nothing in my studio. My kids were in Europe – I was home alone – there were no excuses or distractions. It was simply me being less systematic. As a result I would often say "I’m tired" or "I don’t feel like it" and stuff like "I’ll do it tomorrow".

None of that stuff really results in things getting done. Instead it’s a good way to get nothing done but have a lot of lofty reasons for why I didn’t.

Like "self care is just so much more important than making art". Hm – NOT! Making art is the #1 thing I say I want to spend my time doing. Not avoid doing.

Why Does A System Work?

So I’ve thought a lot about why my old way of doing things, with rules and precise tracking, worked and I think the answer is it is basically the same thing as setting a timer.

There has been tons written about boosting productivity by using a timers (check out these google results). I think my old plan was essentially that. I timed myself.

When I walked into the studio I trained myself to look and the clock. That was it – timer was running. I didn’t stop working until the time was a even increment of 15 minutes. And then I wrote it down.

Because the timer was running I wasn’t tempted to run off and do other stuff, like check email or do my laundry.

When I left my studio the timer was off – I wasn’t racking up minutes. So I’d hurry back to get the timer going again.

I know this sounds kinda crazy but after seeing it in action and reading all the timer and productivity stuff (my favorite person that write about this is Christine Kane) I’m convinced – it really works. And not just for studio stuff. I now use a timer for my writing and planning art business stuff now also.

I have been spending 15 minutes each morning entering addresses into my snail mail mailing list. Fifteen minutes isn’t a lot but over time it adds up and with no big drama effort, I’m going to have the last 18 months of avoiding this task whipped into shape.

Going with No Goals

In my attempt to be more floaty I also gave up setting goals for how many hours I would spend in my studio each week. I decided to just let it happen. As I mentioned – it didn’t.

What happened is the emotional side of me got all excited and it had a field day. Woohoo – we get to run the show and stop her from doing what she wants.

I only made art when I felt like it. Or when I magically had time.

Okay – really – I work full time as a software engineer. I’m a single mom every other week with 2 teenagers constantly wanting stuff. I own my home, have to pay the bills and do all those house things that need done. There is the yard (okay there was the yard – it’s now dirt). Family, friends, quack quack quack.

I don’t have time to put in 20 hours a week in my studio so of course if I give myself an out I’m going to take it. There weren’t any goals so it didn’t matter. No disappointment so why bother doing it.

Thumbs Up To Goals

So forget that no goals thing. I’m now setting my goal to 15 hours a week. I’m making it lower than before because I also plan on doing a lot more art business stuff than I used to.

By setting goals I have something to aim for. I may not always make that goal but by identifying it and writing it down I have a much better chance of making my goal than without writing it down.

By setting goals I am no longer giving the emotional side of me free reign to do what I want. I get scared or worried or anything about what I’m working on. Great – recognize the feelings – but I’m not going to let it stop me from pushing forward.

Eventually those feelings realize they aren’t in control and they get a little less loud.

By setting goals and being systematic I’m significantly more creative and make much more art than when I’m all new-agey. Trying to be like those non-driven people I sometimes think I should be like, who always seem more creative and spontaneous and fun, didn’t work for me at all.

I need structure and systems for my creativity to work.


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Pampering

Hotel Room

Hotel Room
 

Construction Update

It’s been a while since I posted as the last moments of the remodel project are taking up much of my time. Big events like finishing hardwood floors and putting in carpet require a lot of movement of belongings.

Nothing is yet in it’s permanent position but tomorrow movers arrive to start that process by putting the piano up on hardwood floor.

Last week the floors were sanded and finished. They look great – the old and new boards blend well together and they did a nice job. But a smelly job – so I splurged and spent a night at a gorgeous 4 star hotel one night. What a treat. I’m so ready to trade in my twin sized bed for a king again.

Taking the time out for some totally indulgent self care (waffles and fresh berries and cream in the hotel restaurant the next morning was yummy) was perfect. I’m so ready to be living in my house so taking a break from the mess was great.

It’s not looking very likely I’ll be making much art this week but I’ll try to do a couple blog posts. I’m giving a talk next saturday here in Denver about social media so I need to post info about that event (Create Denver Expo).

In the meantime – here are links to the newest construction photos:

March 10-12 – Misc and prep for hardwood floor
March 13 – Refinished hardwood floor and some lights installed.


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